sometimes things slow down

sometimes my days at work are really slow.
i have nothing to do.
no one needs me. no one asks me to help them or to do their work for them.

some days i try to write.

today is one of those days.

i'm listening to pandora radio (favorite). the bon iver station.
it rocks my world usually. someday i want to see bon iver in concert.
that would be beautiful.

today is good friday.
i'm always confused about why exactly it's called good friday.
i understand why it's good that jesus died. but is it good that he died?

i was talking to bpod the other day and she was explaining to me that she was telling me about an experience she had where God revealed to her that her stains and blood are the very same stains and blood and water and nasty that covered jesus today. thats when he loved us the most. when he rose from the dead, it was nice, but i think he felt his love for us the most when he hung there on the cross. and since he's God and he can remember stuff like that really well, it's almost like he is feeling that same thing right now.
all the intensity of pain and death is still present and he still loves us. now.

it's pretty incredible.

i love it.
thanks jesus. you're pretty good and wonderful.